This is the second visitation in as many weeks and I’m not happy about that because I had gone for over a year without one and thought perhaps I had outgrown them, or something.
I am fortunate in the sense I don’t get the ‘please God, take me now’ kind of blinding headaches that cause some to seek a dark and silent room where they can agonize away from anything on the planet.
No, mine are mainly irksome because the predominant symptom for me is ‘auras’. Little lightning bolts begin to manifest in a corner of my visual field and ultimately compromise my entire field with an internal electrical storm. And then they pass in almost exactly a half hour. However, I am left feeling dispirited, apathetic, lacking in energy, etc. Yes, even more than normally.
The odd thing is the bastards sneak up on me even though the signs are present the day before in the so-called ‘promordial phase’ in which I feel inexplicably depressed, fatigued and irritated for no apparent reason. Then when it hits the next day I can go “aha, that’s what that was all about.”
Anyway, that said, I am gratified that I have nothing hugely challenging to deal with today – you know, like getting married or beginning a long dreamt of vacation.
Causes? Beats me. Lots of theories about it. Allergies are often named as culprits: Chocolate, coffee, red wine, methamphetamine. Just kidding about the last one, and since I no longer drink the penultimate one won’t be a factor, either.
Personally I opt for major change in air pressure combined with low-level (or high level) stress. I had my first many years ago just after I had finished final exams in my senior university year.
I have had them at odd times. I have gotten the visual auras in my sleep and can see the lightning bolts in my closed eyelids. I once had an attack whilst making love and am proud to state that I didn’t let that deter me from my chosen objective I once had one while snorkeling in Hawaii. And I have had them on airline flights, which sort of adds insult to injury considering the state of air travel these days.
Anyway, I am OK, but I you want to feel really bad for me and send warm kisses in my direction (if you are female) then I am up for it.
(By the way the graphic pretty much captures what it looks like)